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 20.8.11 @ 13:13:00Hey, I can't believe I'm ranting
  Feeling so hopeless but I knew I must not give up yet... Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarahkatu, It has been a while till I last blogged. It has been a busy year, with lots of trials and tribulations but Alhamdulillah everything went well in the end. This month is the month of Ramadhan, the holiest month in the calender. The month of repentance, forgiveness and ransom from the fire, the month of goodness and blessing, the month of generosity and kindness. I have done my best to top up my iman but I still have a long way to go to be one of the inhabitants of His heaven. Especially since I have this feeling of disappointment and resentment over some issues... Ahhh I just can't help myself but feel frustrated during events you need help from someone, all they say is you can do it. Wait for it. Make doa for it. I know that they are encouraging me and of course make doa is the right way but I just feel so down when I heard them say it. Especially if the said person has gone to the same problem too and brush it off easily as s/he has solved the problem. Who knows how many I make doa, how many time I plead, how many times I cried, but the solution was never there and when I tried asking their help, all they said are these? I am guessing what I'm feeling right is now is probably jealousy. Jealous that they have work out their problems. Jealous that they don't have the same degree of problem as mine. Jealous that I am still suffering over here... These envy slowly becomes anger and bitterness... I hate myself for still experiencing this feeling during this month when I should be forgiving... O Allah, please guide me to the right path... "Now I am quietly waiting for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again" |
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